The past 2 months can pretty much be summed up in this picture:
Me laying down trying not to throw up while still attempting to interact with Avery. I've been sleeping a ton and watching lots of TV, eating the most awful junk food (happy meals for crying out loud!!!!) and just waiting for the second trimester. This time around I've wondered if I will ever willingly get pregnant again or if 2 kids is just our number...
The most helpful thing for the nausea seems to be exercise! But man it's hard when I'm so exhausted all the time.
I still long to leave Utah and live in a different country somewhere. I want to watch the sun rise over the ocean and set over a mountain I've not yet seen. I want to surf perfect waves and eat dinner on the beach with my family. I want to fight for this dream and make it a reality, but I also want a few kids and a stable income that comes with a reasonable retirement (which so far means staying put.) How does one cope with conflicting desires? Is it human nature to always want something different, something more?
For now I'm just trying to get through these pregnancy blues. I'm confident they'll pass soon... As I have been telling myself for 8 weeks now...
